Hmph... I guess I'm a blog-virgin! I've never blogged before and I'm not sure who will read this anyhow but I'm doing it for my benefit. I'm not quite sure where to start! I'm on a great networking & support site and one of the other users is blogging about her weight loss and it sounds like a GREAT idea to me!!
A little background on me. My name is Susan. I am a morbidly obese 24 y/o. I am married to the love of my life and I am stay at home mother of one- with another baby due in January 2010. My husband is in the US Army and is set to deploy early Summer 2010. I currently live in Germany but will be moving back to my hometown of Pittsburgh, PA while my husband is deployed.
I have never been stereotypically "skinny" but I have never weighed this much in my entire life. Just how much you ask? Well, maybe after I lose a substantial amount of weight I will feel free to disclose that information, lol. Let's just say- it isn't pretty! In high school I was happy with my weight. I was (and still am) 5'7'' and at the time I weighed about 170 lbs and wore a size 12-14. This is my goal to get back down to... I know it sounds like a lot and I'm sure it is for some people... but when almost everyone in your family is considered obese you take what you can get!
I've battled with my weight since I left high school in 2004 and subsequently moved out of my parents house... Fast food became my friend as I was too lazy and too inexperienced to cook for myself. Since then the most I have ever weighed was after my daughter's birth in July 2007. I was at 298 lbs. I managed to drop down to 240 lbs by October 2007 (with the help of weight-watchers.) I know- 60 lbs in 3 months is a LOT of weight to lose, however a ton of it was water weight because of how badly I was swelling while pregnant. I lost 30 lbs within the first week post-delivery. I was doing great and was well on track to reach my goal of being under 200 lbs before my daughter turned one, but when I returned to work I lost all motivation to diet and began putting the lbs back on. Before I became pregnant this last April 2009 I had gained back a lot of what I had managed to lose and was sitting between 260 and 270.
With this second pregnancy I have been watching my calories and food and am still under what my doctor suggests I gain- so I'm pretty thrilled with myself about that.
My husband has always been heavier than me so it was never an issue for me to be overweight. However, once he joined the Army in September 2008 he went from about 280 lbs to under 180 lbs in January 2009. Since then he has plateaued, and he is still over weight by Army standards (needs to be about 170) but he has come SO far in less than a year and has managed to keep off all the weight he has lost! Needless to say I am very jealous!!
This time around I have no reason to lose motivation to stop dieting. I am removing all thoughts that I "can't" do it, or thoughts that I will fail again. It is NOT an option to me. I do not want to be a 300 lb woman. I have issues because of my weight- I have high blood pressure, and am pre-diabetic. I also have back issues and joint pain. I do not want to show my children that it is OK to not care about your appearances or your health. I want to show them that you can do anything you put your mind to!
I am not able to start my diet, officially, until about 6 weeks after delivery as I am having a c-section. And to help myself lose weight I am buying myself a Wii Fit and will be doing Weight Watchers Online.
I know that 2010 will bring me a lot of joy, and a lot of sorrow (with my husband deploying)... And with so many changes happening in my life in a short amount of time I need to do something for me or I fear I will fall back into the fast food, stress eating habits of my past... So here is to a new year, and a new me. Wish me luck!
